What I feel :)


There are so many hidden things inside of me. It made me change so much. It put me to sleep, it tied my hands and feet. It trapped me in a dark room. The pieces of lost time. The memories of love that I threw away. They have been deleted and thrown away. Only the outer shells remain. Without knowing anything, I just shouted. I just have that memory. My heart that was cold as ice. It will be forgotten after I sleep. I want to escape from this pain that chains me down. Someone wake me up. From my soul that is filled with scars.

The deeply colored night sky. Is filled with you, who won’t leave. It wakes me from my sleep. Kissing me again. Your voice that whispered I love you. Your scent, I hear it in my ears every day. Where are you?

You’re hidden in a place where I can’t see you. The pain you received for me. When my anger becomes one. I’ll chase the lost memories from the deep sleep. I want to find the real me that is not you. But the bruises in my heart are too big. I try hiding it but they hide in my heart and wake me up. I met you on the other side of my horrible memories. You embraced even my lost feelings. Helping me get up from being broken. I’m trying not to let go of your hands. I’m trying to erase the nightmares. I’m trying so hard. In this place where I trapped myself.

I want to roll up the darkness and find you. Though I can’t touch you or be held by you. What controls me. Isn’t what lives in meWhat can heal me isn’t strong medicine. It’s just love. The voice I hear in my ears. Wakes me up from being lost. After it wraps around me and kisses me. It disappears and I can’t see it anymore.In the night sky that I can’t touch.I see you turning back. Making me escape from the exhausted days. Making it into a picture. I’m sorry, I say as I hold onto you. Don’t go far away, I call out to you. In the sadness that I can’t ever see again. Tears fall again. 


Hey. I think I'm crazy and stupid cause still waiting for you to comeback to me. I just want to say here, I love as my bestfriend that always be there when I need someone to comfort me. I still remember what we chat until dawn :) Well, I wish you healthy and goodluck in your life. Lots of love the girl who you know, Edy Blue :)
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